I wish I could buy back time
Wrap it and tie it up and hold it close
Be the girl before I knew what the space between the years
Can do to you.

I beg and I beg
But you can only give what you get
I try and I try
But you can only love what you want
Leave me while you can
It's the safest bet

you never land
and then
you decide to land
here.

in the
middle
of

my warm
fingers.
now you
refuse to leave.

You'll never get her back the way
You do what you do
She's never coming home
She can see right through
You're coming empty handed
When she's carrying gold
Now you're crying to yourself
I should have done
As I was told

Type your name into a little box to pretend I still know you
Scroll through years to look at photos of us, of you, of something happy
What are you doing now?
I heard you drink too much
With the same girl from the museum
You look different, rounder on the edges
I try to put these clues from friends together
No one ever says how you really are
So I pretend I still know you

i think i knew it all along
before i even met you
that i'd fall in love
i could feel it in my bones

maybe that's why i stayed
away for so long
my heart telling me
you're no good

but i never listen to her
that silly little thing

babe, I was born nostalgic

you're at war with yourself
and i can't save you
when i'm fighting my own battle

Hold your own soul
Love me like you lost me in the dark
Let's hide from this smell, this mess
Just give me your best and smile
We can be something without manners
You got blisters from holding the weight of the world
I want to put your body to the test
Now show me the love, give us what we're scared of

I wanna walk with you in my summer shoes
But damn, you don't know how to stand

I'm a friendly girl and I keep on changing too
But damn, it's hard when you have no plan

And we can keep on going
Like we did before
And we can keep on hoping
Our hearts don't smack the floor

I'm a big girl with a summer plan
You're a big kid with even bigger plans
That's a big deal for a grown man
And damn, it's a shame, this circumstance.

I did it for us and I did it for love
God knows, I didn't do it for the heavens above
I did it for you and I did for me.

You can call it murder
Call it finding the light
God knows, I'm gonna sleep well tonight
I'll dream of a life where my soul is free.

They call me a killer and I call you a saint
God knows, they're gonna paint what they wanna paint
So hold me close 'til they take me away
You said you'd stay, so baby stay.

Everything is eventual, especially heartbreak.

I'm in the middle
and
It might as well be nowhere.

Lost You in a Fever

I lost you in a fever
Where did we go wrong?
Now you're waiting at
The place we used to sit and talk
and it's all wrong
When did we go wrong?
I lost you in a fever
and it's hard to cool down
After running around for so long
Now you want me to come back home
but I forgot how to remember
How to be yours
After waiting for you to come home

I'd hold you down but you gotta be down

I don't want to lose focus
Remember why I'm here
To look for something that I can't define
An absence that haunts me

You don't want to lose focus
Fall into someone you can't define
Have their absence haunt you
Become something that you'll never find

Isn't it funny how we spend our entire lives trying to avoid what we become?

You can only be as good as you want to be.

You can only be as good as you want to be.
That is what she told me.
And I thought,
What if I wanted to be awful awful,
Take the road always traveled.
And she said,
Just remember what you'll see
When you look back.

I'm here because life is too short to wait for last call.

I looked at you differently

In the light
Of the fluorescent lamp
You're hunched over,
Thinking like those funny Greek statues in museums,
A quiet beauty.

The slope of your nose,
Wonder of your eyes,
Curve of your lips.

I stare,
Caught in a Yeats poem.
Its an odyssey,
Falling for someone.
Its a breakthrough,
learning to love again.

Merci Mille Fois, Mon amour.