He woke me up.

While my eyes were filled with morning dew
Rolling over in bed to face him through sleepy eyelashes
He's leaving to start his day
The morning is filtering through the blinds
And we, are happy.
The air is filled with what we want to say
I ___ you
So I ask,
Do you love me?
He says
Yes, I love you
He pulls a gray shirt on, I love you
He slips a belt around his waist, I love you
When he shuts the door behind him, he taps on the open window,
I love you
and, I, I love him
I say it easily, without any hesitation, without any doubt in my mind.

I must have...

Missed something
In between the here and now
You aren't the same anymore
or,
Maybe, I'm different
or,
Both.
What I do know is that I wasn't scared to climb onto the slanted roof
To watch the sky change colours and share ghost stories with our friend.
I haven't said fuck you to my own fears for a long time,
Since I was a kid jumping over ravines and swimming in murky lakes.
I'll always miss you and love you but
I mean the you I knew, the memory of you, not the here and now because
I've learned to love myself and life, again and
Frankly, I am no longer in love with you.

I think I'm in love.

I think I'm in love,
again.
I realized tonight,
that love is continuous
memorable, sad and
forever beautiful.
Always beautiful,
the way the sun always rises
but everyday you see it from a different rooftop.

Please, please, please

Don't give me a reason to doubt you,
to backtrack, to step away.
It would be another chip in my shoulder,
another ravel in the fray.

We don't even care.

Dancing until our legs ache
Throwing away checklists
Drawing hearts on fogged glass
and for the first time in a long time,
I don't feel like running when he holds my hand.

Whoever that was,
Whatever we were,
I'm long gone.